Make the Sunshine

I forget about it, when I wear my heels and  party, I forget about it, when I wake up once or twice to feed my baby I forget about it, when I go  up & down the stairs a million times I forget about it, when I sit in front of the butsudaan and pray I forget about it, when everyone treats me like I don't have  it I forget about it, when a I take a selfie and  smile at the camera. But, I can't forget  about it,when my leg is numb and I don't know how to make it better I can't  forget about it, when my body is in pain and I have no energy to lift up my finger I can't forget about it, when sitting and praying seems so difficult I can't forget about it, when tears flow down my cheeks knowing I can't undo it I can't forget about it, when I have to explain this indescribable feeling I can't forget about it, when I stand in front of the mirror, knowing I am fighting an invisible disease. But, I will never forget what ...

When that finger rises up and points to the ceiling as soon as the beat hits, my heart skips a beat and I look and think in wonder how has he grown up so quickly. It seems like it was yesterday when I tried to feed him his first mother's milk, and he was refusing to latch to my boobs. It was one of the most painful things i experienced. Well yes!! I am a mom of a beautiful baby boy. Who would have thought that! After being diagnosed with MS in 2013, this day seemed really far fetched.  It had been a year or so since I had left Tecfidera. I was feeling good, doing good, no relapse or anything.  After a fun filled trip to Thailand  with my brother and niece, within a month of coming back Bam! just like that i got pregnant. I never thought it would be so easy for me...no.medications, no treatments, no waiting. It happened, I was kinda prepared and unprepared. I had the most amazing  and fulfilling 9 months of my life. 11 hrs of labor and a vaginal delivery....